THE TRUTH 1981 SUICIDE DISCOVERY!

[3DECADESAGO]

I am trying to reach out to people to get my story out. I am thinking of writting a book but not sure where or how to begin doing that. If anyone knows or has suggestions please let me know. My story is tragic. Horrific and I have been struggling with the WHY? and HOW? did my sister's life and my families life go so wrong that day in Sept. 1981.
I was almost 13 years old. My sister was 25. She moved back home because she was going through with her divorce. She stayed with us for a while. Well in the process I witnessed her changing. I could not understand why she was talking like she was..Why she was acting like she was etc. well..after all these years of knowing..there was more to her death..I knew it from the moment I realized this time..she was really dead.
She really did it. She was not Faking..She was not joking about it anymore, she would not get angry for no reason anymore, she would not ask me to help her die, she would not scare and torment me anymore, she changed from herself into this crazy person I did not recognize. My Sister was a very smart woman. I love her dearly. We were close. Especially towards the ending of her life. This is why i was able to put it together.
AS OF 6 WEEKS AGO..THE TRUTH CAME TO ME. MY SEARCH IS NOW OVER. I FOUND MY ANSWERS ..IT ALL MAKES SENSE NOW..AND I WILL PERSUE JUSTICE FOR HER AND OTHERS WHO LOST THIER LIVES BECAUSE SOMEONE WAS NOT TELLING THE TRUTH ABOUT THEIR PRODUCTS THAT WERE SUPPOSE TO HELP PEOPLE. MY SISTER WAS NOT MENTALLY ILL.
MY SISTER HAD NO PRIOR MENTAL PROBLEMS..CONCLUSION TO MY NIGHTMARE IS: THE DRUG THEY PUT HER ON. AND IM SURE MANY OTHERS.. BACK IN 1981 MY RESEARCH NOW PROVES..THIS IS WHAT KILLED HER.
SHE WAS NOT SUICIDAL OR IN ANYWAY A MENAL PERSON UNTIL THE DRUG MADE HER BE! THANK TO THE BOTTLE I FOUND AND STILL HAVE TODAY IN MY POSSESSION AND THE COMPUTERS THAT WERE INVENTED I WAS ABLE TO PIECE TOGETHER EVERYTHING..AND IT WAS NOT HARD! MANY OF VICTIMS OF SUICIDE..WELL SO CALLED..THATS WHAT IT LOOKED LIKE AND THATS WHAT THEY WERE LABELED AS. WERE BURIED AND FORGOTTEN BY MOST. BUT THE FAMILIES WHO HAVE SIMILAR STORIES TO MINE. I CAN GIVE THEM CLOSURE! I am angered. see there was no warnings given to my sister..because from what i have researched..the drug company did not give out any on these drugs. and what they did give if anything was not all the truth. the real numbers in the clinical studies of this drug..THE AMOUNT OF INCOMING SUICIDES FROM THE CLINICAL TRIALS WERE OF A
TOLERABLE LEVEL. So what they did is concealed the information. MANY FAMILIES  ONCE THEY WERE ABLE TO PUT IT TOGHTER BECAUSE NOW..THE INFORMATION IS OUT THERE FOR PATIENTS AND FAMILIES..MANY DRUG COMPANIES SETTLED OUT OF COURT. THE FAMILIES SETTLED THE CASE QUIETLY AND THIS ALLOWED FOR THE CIRCLE OF DECIPT TO CONTINUE.
ALSO WHEN SOMEONE DIES FROM SUICIDE. NO ONE WANTS TO TALK ABOUT IT. NO ONE WANTS TO HEAR THAT WORD. NO ONE WANTS TO TALK ABOUT THE PERSON WHO LOST THEIR LIVES TO THERE SO CALLED OWN DOING! MANY PEOPLES SUICIDES ARE NOT LABELED CORRECTLY. THEY ARE WHAT THEY ARE AND NO MORE INVESTIGATION IS NEEDED. CASES CLOSED!

*Next time you hear on a tv commercial for a antidepressant drug..listen carefully to all of it. Stop and listen no matter what your doing. IT MAY SAVE YOUR LIFE SOMEDAY OR SOMEONE ELSES!
IF YOU OR A LOVED ONE STARTS THIS MEDICATION..AND STARTS TO ACT IN ANYWAY..SUICIDAL. TALKING ABOUT DEATH OR DYING REPORT IT TO THE DOCTORS. SEE WE DID THAT..BACK IN 1981 THERE WAS NO WARNING.
WE JUST WERE CONCERNED AND NO WHAT WE GOT: YOU DON'T HAVE TO WORRY SHE WILL NOT HARM HERSELF . IT IS NOT IN HER! YOU DO NOT NEED TO WATCH HER TAKE HER MEDS SHE IS A BIG GIRL AND CAN DO THAT HERSELF. WELL MY SISTER TOLD HER FRIEND THAT SHE DID NOT LIKE HOW THE MED WAS MAKING HER FEEL. SO SHE SAID SHE WAS NOT GOING TO TAKE IT ANYMORE. SO. SHE STOPPED! THIS IS WHAT GAVE HER THE HOW..HOW SHE DID WHAT SHE DID. UNKWONINGLY..NO INFOMATION OF THE DANGER GIVEN..SHE STOPPED ABRUPTLY.  SHE WENT INTO THE SO CALLED..NOW A DAYS..WITHDRAWL SYNDROME..OMG..THAT IS NOT EVEN WHAT HAPPENS. DEATH HAPPENS. SUICIDE HAPPENS THAT SHOULD BE THE WARNING NOW TODAY! SHORTLY BEFORE SHE TOOK HER OWN LIFE.. SHE WENT THROUGH A REALLY BAD FLU. SHE LOST WEIGHT. SHE COULD NOT SWALLOW OR TALK. HER BREATHING WAS REALLY BAD. WELL TURNS OUT. THE FLU LIKE SYMPTOMS WERE NOT THE FLU! SHE DID NOT KNOW NOR DID WE..THE FLU SHE WAS GOING THROUGH WAS FROM THE DRUG WITHDRAWL!! SHE WAS SENT INTO THE TERM AKATHISIA. PSYCHOSIS AND MANIA THIS IS WHAT TOOK HER FROM US. THIS IS WHY SHE SHOT HERSELF IN THE HEAD. I FOUND HER..AND I ALWAYS NEW MAYBE...JUST MAYBE..SOMEDAY WE WILL KNOW THE TRUTH OF WHAT HAPPENED?! WHY DID SHE CHANGE?! WE NEVER WOULD OF CONNECTED IT TO THE DRUG.
NOT IN 1981

[georgiapeaches]

Dear 3decades,
My husband was sick for 10 years and he was on all sorts of medications, and yes your right, the side effects alone are off the wall, and all those medications are what finally killed him. Now the doctors are trying to put my daughter on the same thing and I wont have it. Shes 19 and I donthave control over it, but she doesnt have the money to pick up the medication, so theres my control. These doctors do love to write prescriptions.  I'm so sorry you had to go through this hell, so sorry for your loss. I hope that you can give your sister some kind of justice.
Georgia.

[Luvinmike]

Dear3decadesago- so sorry for the loss of your sister. I am so sorry for you and your family. Good luck in your work on her behalf. Please take good care of yourself in the meantime. There is also a sibling loss board on this site for additional support if you would like to write on that board as well. Terri

[laurenE]

I am so very sorry for your pain and loss.    It sounds as if your sister  COULD HAVE  had a bad reaction to her medication.  I am so sorry for that.    But there are many people who benefit greatly while on antidepressants with very little or no side effects.   It does not affect everyone the same way.   

Most Antidepressants are not meant to be stopped cold turkey.  If that does occur,  there can be major side affects,  such as the ones your sister suffered from.   I am sorry for that.   

But its hard to know which came first.. suicidal thoughts or antidepressants, most likely at least depression,  otherwise she would not have been prescribed the meds.     so its  hard to know what to blame... the  major depression or the meds.     It is very rare that antidepressants make depression worse  but it can happen.     I hope that was not the case w/ your sister. 

I do hope you find closure in your pain