Without Mama

[mamababy]

I lost my mother to 2 months ago. She was killed in a head on collision on a major hwy. Mother was my bestfriend. (You know your bestfriend is the one you tell everything to) I was born on her birthday. She was born April 1 @ 1:14am; I was born April 1 @ 1:14p.m. (April fools baby) She had three children (including myself, the oldest) and one grandson, my son. She was my biggest support. She has always bend over for her children as I did for her and she was the only one who could sooth all of my untouchable woes. We had our way to hang and clown around. The day she pass was two week after I told her I dreamth that I was killed in a car werck. It was not me it was her I dream of. The Werck happen exactly the way I dream. This year I asked my mother if it would be okay if we did not celebrate our brithday together because I would not know what to do if something was to happen and now I look back and realize that I am bless and honor. God gave me the knowledge and vision to see and hear things before it happen. But its frighten because 1. I feel lost, incomplete, confused, and empty.  I can not belive that my mother left without talking to me that day (We usually talk everymorning, evening, and night) and that morning we did not talk and she slip away. What do a lonely child do when mama was ALL that she had?

[laurenE]

mamababy,

I'm so sorry for you loss.    It is very difficult to lose a mother.  Its amazing how huge that mother daughter bond is, even in the worst of circumstances.  I lost mine 6 yrs ago.

  I encourage you to find support with other females as well as a support group for grievers.   Sometimes when the mother daughter relationship is so tight,  there is no need to let in other female relationships.   This is not a healthy thing,  as we all need more than one person as our support.     So please start socializing with other females,  going to lunch, church,  or spending time at their home with them.  This will help get you through your grief.    You may not feel like doing it right away,  but please force yourself once in awhile to get out there and be with others.

And of course, being here will help as well.  As you are not alone.
lauren

[vimbo76]

I am sorry about your loss, my heart goes out to you.
i lost my mother in October this year, somehow it still feels like a dream,i keep thinking she will come back to us. Her death was so sudden that we didn't get to talk to her.i am still struggling to accept it.She wanted so much for me to get married and have kids, but now i know that she will not be there to see that' it makes me very sad