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[toni]

hi.  i'm toni and i'm new here.  my daughter, katie was killed in a car accident on may 28, 2008.  she was 22.  she has an identical twin, kelsey.  i don't know what else to say.  i just feel...i don't know.  alone?  and i know i'm not.  i know i'm not the first one to suffer the loss of a child.  but...i just don't know how to... i guess i'm hoping to read something that will describe how i feel.  ~sighs~  so confusing.

[Luvinmike]

Dear Toni, So very sorry for the death of your beloved daughter. Please read and post on the child loss section of the message board. I hope and believe you will find some comfort sharing this painful journey with others who do understand, there are many years of wisdom and strength amongst the caring members of this site. Just click on the child loss board and introduce yourself. We are all so very sorry you have reason to be here. Thinking of you. Terri ( a member on the main board)

[toni]

thank you.  i'm sorry you have reason to be here too.  i've been reading all of the posts.  the introductions of peoples' children.  so sad. again...thanks for reading and responding.  it's been a very lonely time for me. 

[Judy, Dougie's Mom]

((((Toni))))

I am so sorry you are here but so glad you found us.  I am deeply sorry for the loss of your precious Katie.

I have been comng to the child loss board for 4 1/2 years and there is strength, compassion and most of all understanding here.  We all walk this road together.

Be gentle with yourself, it is baby steps, deep breaths and one moment at a time.

Sending you strength for this moment and the next and the next.

Hugs
Judy

"MAKANA LIVES"
forever in my heart

[toni]

dear judy.

thank you!  i log on every morning now to see if anyone replied.  my heart kind of skips a beat to see someone acknowledge me here.  i will take the previous poster's suggestion and go to the child loss board.  i started to introduce katie there the other night...but...i didn't even know what to write.  she's a twin.  an identical twin.  they are both substance abusers.  katie died in a single car accident.  the driver hit a tree and she was ejected.  died instantly.  her sister is on the same path.  it's so complicated.  we had so many unresolved issues.  and now...in this life...we will never have the chance to resolve them.  thank you for listening.  thank you so much.

warmest regards,
toni

[Judy, Dougie's Mom]

(((Toni)))

I understand not knowing what to say.......this journey is so confusing.  You are very new on this road and probably at this time frame nothing makes much sense.  And that's okay, it's all part of our grieving.

I lost my son 4 years 9 months and 5 days ago and it still feels like yesterday.  He died of a cocaine overdose so I understand the agony of substance abuse.

Share you beautiful daughter with us when you are ready.

One moment at a time is all you can be expected to do.

Love
Judy

"MAKANA LIVES"
forever in my heart

[Jeanneb]

Hi Toni,

I am so deeply sorry for the loss of your daughter.  You certainly have come to the right place and hope you will post on the child loss board.

I lost my youngest son Philip at the age of 17 due to a car accident.  It has been a little over 5 years now and I miss him every day.

This is not an easy journey by any means.  This board has helped me over the years and I hope it will help you as well.  Many a person would tell me deep breaths and baby steps... it is so true.  Most days it will be all you can do to take it one minute at a time and that is ok.  There is no right or wrong way just your way.

The first year is hard with all the firsts and the holidays coming up... just know that we are here for you.  Please share your daughter with us as you are able.

Hugs,
Jeanne
Philip's mom forever