don't know where to begin

[jeremyb]

Hello, I'm new to this an not sure where to start I've lost allot of friends and family in the past, but in the last three years it's been really hard I lost my cousin who was six months younger than me to suicide, my greatgrandma to old age and now my mom, she was only 45, my mom was young (14) when I was born her mom and step-father raised me then adopted me at 7yrs old, basically I always knew my mom as that but also as a sister and thats how we acted  growing up, in the 15 years we had also grown as friends (best) we could talk about anything and then to top it off we both worked in the same factory for 8 years together.       She was on anti-depression meds and others to help her sleep, She went to the hospital on Nov.26 as was diagnosed with a UTI,Thursday night Nov. 30 she was as happy as anyone had ever seen her on Dec.1 I received a call from my brother saying her husband couldn't wake her and I blew it off, that was mom 10Min's later her husband called and told me the paramedics where there and I needed to be also, We lost her that night at her house we still don't know how or why we're still waiting on the autopsy report, but it's just been really hard I cant sleep and I just can't stop remembering my mom,sister,best friend and co-worker and I hope my brothers and I can make it through the holiday's they were her favorite time of year, thanks for reading

[Robinbird]

It will take a bit of time for freplies, but they will come... they did for me.  I wanted to say I know the pain of loss of a loved one to suicide.  I hope you have a counseling place? You are in my thoughts, and I am wishing you strong good people to lift you, help through healing and simply be there....
Robin

[Lonnie]

Jeremy: I am so sorry to hear of all the people dear to you that you have lost. I wish they were just lost-we could find them again...but death is so final. I am so sorry about the cousin, your great grandma, and your mom. She was also so young! I wonder if any of the meds they gave her caused a reaction or anything. I have just been through some recurrent UTI's and I get nervous about some of the meds they have prescribed. It seemed to be resistant in the beginning and I was put on 3 different ones and some have lots of side effects. Will it be a long time before you get the results of the autopsy? Waiting is horrible, isn't it? My dad died from hospital acquired complications after a triple bypass. He came through the surgery fine, but in my opinion the hospital killed him. Definitely some negligence, but so hard to prove. I sure hope you are able to get some answers. Again, I am so sorry for all that has happened, and I know that the holidays will be very hard on your family. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Please come back when you need to talk. Lonnie

[Johnboy]

Hello Jeremyb

My name is John

I have also lost my mother, I lost her a year ago this saturday in a car accident I also lost my father the same night it was the 23rd of December. I can tell you one thing that I have learned about this wonderfull time of year that yours and my mother loved so much and that is they loved to see us smile and laugh durring those presious time of the year they love memories that it created and I know that if there is anyway to honour there love for this season then its to continue the tradition of happyness even though it is so hard with out them, but really theer not gone there in our faces, our hearts our laughters, our dreamms and thoughts and though they seem so far away there really right inside of us. I have also lost a few friends this year and I can say my sympathy is with you. The one thing that I can say is that Im here for you and that I wish you a merry christmas and happy new year. You should walk strog walk proud walk with your head up because you are a good person and your going to be ok Jeremyb


Take care my friend I will talk to you soon

Johnboy