I miss my mom!

[lookingforward]

My mom passed away almost four weeks ago at the age of 69. She had a catastrophic stroke and I can't stop crying. She was my best friend and closest confidante and she had seen me through the past year of breast cancer treatment. I ache for her and am having trouble keeping sane for my children. It has been the most difficult time for me. Much harder than chemo, radiation or surgery. I am so angry that they could not save her. I am sorry to be so negative.

Thanks for "listening".

[Luvinmike]

Thinking of you and sending you wishes of strength and belief in your ability to keep your head up. I am so sorry for your loss. Please take care and know the pain will ease enough to endure as time passes, even though it may seem impossible now. Keep writing. Prayers for you. Terri

[laurenE]

I know all too well how painful loosing a mother can be.  I cant imagine what it would be like to loose one as close as the two of you seemed to be though.  Im so sorry.    I lost mine almost 6 yrs ago but we were not blessed with such a nice relationship.

Im glad you found us here.  Keep writing.  You'll get support from good people here. 

[lookingforward]

Thanks for your replies. It is so difficult...she lived very close to me and every place we went to reminds me of the loss. My dad is doing okay...I try not to lose it in front of him as he is trying to cope. We went to pick up her ashes and I really thought I was going to have a breakdown. I feel like she got cheated...but I know that 69 is old compared to some who have passed on. Its just so overwhelming.

I deeply appreciate your kind words. And I do know how blessed I was to have such a great relationship with her. It was truly remarkable. She was only 22 years older than me...I had 47 great years with her.

[ladybug13]

Lookingforward,
     My heart hurts for you. I lost my Mom in Dec of last year from stroke and heart disease. She was 59 (I 28) I miss her more than words can say. Its been a little over 7 months she has been gone, I still have the bad days but it has gotten easier. I can at least function without crying all the time. Know it does get better, you will always miss her that will never change. Take care of yourself, your Mom would want you too. I will be thinking of you, come here often it helps when you have others who have gone or are going thru the grief process too.....  Jacque

[SBrown0404]

I feel your pain.  When you lose your mother it is one of the most painful feelings ever.  You are so heartbroken and lonely, and your world will never be the same.  I lost my mother 8 months ago, she was 58.  My mother was my best friend in the world and I will never be able to replace her love and friendship.  One thing I think about to try to ease the pain is how I was so lucky to have such a great mother all my life of 33 years, some people don't ever feel that wonderful unconditional love and security in their life.  I still feel she was taken too early from me.  I will always miss her.

[saba]

i dont want 2 remembr how long my Amma s gone now, i stil dont want 2 wake up w/o her being here with me, i stil dont want 2 eat w/o her monitoring that i eat enough. i m often short of breath due to illness n wen some1 comments on it i tell them Amma took some of my breaths wth her...

[kevinjj]

I am truly sorry for your loss. I can still see my mother sitting at the airport wating to fly home after a visit. She had been through some rough surgery and was not completely recovered. We said out good byes and I kissed her and I can still see her looking at me with sad eyes as I walked away. I realized later after her death that she knew it was the last time she would see me. I wish I would have gone back and told her I loved her yet again and kissed her goodbye one more time, but it would have made no difference to the sadness and her passing. She was soon back in the hospital and never made it home again.

[nancy/Patricks mom]

I lost my mother this past April to heart problems I can't tell you how many times I have picked up the phone to call her I would talk to her at least 7 or 8 times a day we were very close  I lost my 20 year old son this past christmas and she was the only one I could talk about it to the only one that really understood to lose my son and then 4 months later to lose my mother is unbearable but I know they are together now

[teenu]

Hello everyone i just joined the group. I lost my mom last year Aug 13th, 2007. I just had a baby that was 1 month old when it occured. She was 58yo, healthy and beautiful. She had cataract surgery that morning.  I called to see how she was doing. I live on the west coast and she on the east so i couldn't be there. She couldn't come to the phone cause she was in pain.  I got a phone call 6 hours later that she was in an ambulance on her way to the hospital. They couldn't save her. My brothers found her collapsed on the ground in her room. The final report said unknown cause. We thought the surgery was the cause.  I left my kids with my husband and got on the first flight there. The way she passed away it seemed as if it was an arrythmia of some sort. She told me that before the surgery they said she had an arrythmia but not severe enough to entail going on medication etc. My mom was very very religous. In my heart i believe and it gives me so much comfort to think that maybe god just needed an excuse to take her. She had a really tough life. She raised all her kids on her own 2 pharmacists 1- lawyer, 1-biomedical engineer. I will never forget her. She was my bestfriend. I love her so much. She was the love of my life. It is so hard to be strong for my kids and husband. Thanks for listening everyone.

[Luvinmike]

Your Mom was blessed to have a daughter like you. My Pastor would tell you she is peaceful. She worked hard, now she rests. Carry on as she taught you. So sorry for your pain and sending you prayers for comfort and good memories as time passes. Very sorry. Terri

[sonya_lonely]

i m sorry for ur loss...loosing parent is like getting unshielded to rhis world..i m unfortunate one to loose my parents to an accident in april this year..now me and my younger bro are left in this world and are totally unaware to move forward...
u r in my thoughts and prayers

[mimismom]

I am new to the message board but, unfortuantely not new to the pain of the loss of a mom. My mother died in January of this year. She just died and it was days before we found her. She was 57 years old. She was home, she lived alone and did her own thing. I miss her terribly!!!!! The cause of death was "probable" atherosclerotic heart disease. There seems to be no genuine comfort for me besides the fact that she was in chronic pain from her back surgery earlier last year and she doesn't have to endure that anymore, but it doesn't lessen the constant ache that seems to hang out with you especially when I am all alone. I am constantly asking God to carry me from day to day and sometimes minute to minute. I lost my job two weeks after her passing and as of last week I have been laid off again. I will continue to pray for you and your strength!!!!

[faye marie]

This is somewhat different that what I have read here.  My mom died 6 years ago and I don't miss her.....I used to have dreams that she was alive again, and I would say...no, you can't be here you have died.....my mom was not good to me and I never felt love.....I am now feeling so guilty because I cannot miss her....sometimes I think about her and wish we could have had a relationship...she did not care about me and talked badly about me to everyone.  I could never meet someone without wondering what she said bad about me nor could I ever hold my head up.....I want to miss her.....fayemarie

[mimi76]

i lost my dad 13 years ago the 27th oh this month. i know how bad it hurts...