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karenl
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« on: April 27, 2008, 02:35:53 PM »

Hello,

My husband, Phil, died of mesothelioma on May 24, 2006.  His birthday is May 3rd and he would have been 65.  I'm finding I am feeling very vulnerable  and apprehensive as May approaches. 

I'm not sure what I expected this year.  I'm reliving his diagnosis and quick downturn and I thought/hoped I was through with those mind pictures.  His illness was completely unexpected.  He had a lingering cold in December and in January the diagnosis came in.  Surgery, a few sessions of chemo and he was gone.  He had no known exposure to asbestos.  Now I have a cold and can't stop the thought that what if this isn't a cold. Each time I get a cold am I going to go down this route?

We have 2 wonderful daughters that were here for him and now for me and each other.  I see him in them and that is comforting.  He was very proud of both of them.

I'm sorry we've all had such losses that brought us here.  I hope I can find some additional comfort and support from reading other's posts.

Karen

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« Reply #1 on: April 30, 2008, 09:18:47 AM »

Karen - I'm so sorry to hear about your husband. What a shock to go from a "cold" to diagnosis and downturn so quickly. My heart breaks for you. I hope you will take care of yourself, grief takes such a toll on all aspects of life.. and time is not the "cure-all" that people want it to be. Two years is not a long time and of course you are having a hard time near these special dates (his birthday and death day in the same month is very difficult)..

I also think it is natural to worry more after the loss of someone we love. Since my nephew died I know that anything is possible and worry extra about everyone I love, especially my parents who both just turned 75 last week. My brother lost his only child, my parents lost their only grandchild. It just breaks my heart every time I think of it... we all check in more with each other now.. it is natural I think..

I am glad your daughters are there for you and caring and helping. I think your husband is very proud of all of you.

Sending you big hugs and thinking of your hubby near his birthday (day before my wedding anniversary)..

Karen
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« Reply #2 on: May 03, 2008, 10:51:04 AM »

Karen,

I am very sorry to hear of your husbands death.    I encourage you always to do something special for yourself on those days ..his bday,  the anniv date of his death,   your wedding anniv.   bc they sure can be tough days.   I always take the day off work and make a special day for myself.

thinking of you tomorrow

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« Reply #3 on: June 18, 2008, 07:06:25 AM »

Sorry for your loss!  My dad died of mesothelioma 8/7/01-he was 74.  He'd been a fireman, painting contractor....and other jobs exposed to asbestos.  18 months before he died, he had fluid drained from around his lungs and that aggravated the meso tumor and he was hospitalized for over a month before they diagnosed it as meso.  By then it'd gotten into his bloodstream and traveled to his brain.  He lost 30+ lb. and was too weak for chemo.  Thank God he died during the night and didn't linger.  Other than the meso, he was healthier than a horse!

I'd look into pursuing some class action lawsuits for wrongful death against the asbestos manufacturers-check out meso.com-law firm of Roger Worthington.  They may be able to get you some settlements-that may help ease the pain somehow.

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Hello,

My husband, Phil, died of mesothelioma on May 24, 2006.  His birthday is May 3rd and he would have been 65.  I'm finding I am feeling very vulnerable  and apprehensive as May approaches. 

I'm not sure what I expected this year.  I'm reliving his diagnosis and quick downturn and I thought/hoped I was through with those mind pictures.  His illness was completely unexpected.  He had a lingering cold in December and in January the diagnosis came in.  Surgery, a few sessions of chemo and he was gone.  He had no known exposure to asbestos.  Now I have a cold and can't stop the thought that what if this isn't a cold. Each time I get a cold am I going to go down this route?

We have 2 wonderful daughters that were here for him and now for me and each other.  I see him in them and that is comforting.  He was very proud of both of them.

I'm sorry we've all had such losses that brought us here.  I hope I can find some additional comfort and support from reading other's posts.

Karen


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« Reply #4 on: June 19, 2008, 06:40:22 AM »

I try not to anticipate anniversaries but they come - Im in the monthly ones - just 4 months since Betty died - the 14th she died and the 28th is the day she left home and never returned from the hospital - it is as sad as the day she died. Her birthday, our anniversary will be real bad but I don't think of it much today, June 19 - they are coming - Christmas and Thanksgiving will be real bad this first year but they are down the line too. I will want to be with people I am the most comfortable with. I usually call a few people on an anniversary day. I hope and pray I will be able to do something special for myself down the line. Hope floats but some days it doesn't seem like it.
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