introducing my son

[nancy/Patricks mom]

My son Johnathan Patrick was born on March 31 1987 and became an angel on December 8 2007. Patrick was a complete joy, even at his most trying times and even when he broke our hearts. Patrick was well liked by his peers, friendly and expressed a kind nature and maturity that few men his age have... the family would jokingly say he was an 'old soul' His introspective nature made him a refreshing converstionlist... his ability to weave a tale(however exaggerated or not) would leave his audience laughing and gasping with shock at the same time.  Patrick's ability to find humor in any situation. His laughter we'll never forget its sound, the way he would step back and toss his head and just laugh. His mannerisms unique only to him. Patrick talked about the future with such promise and optimism he wanted to go to school he wanted to make a differenceHe was honest kind and had respect for other people just for being human.  Unfortunally, like some young people he made poor choices . Choices that in his latter months he regretted. He struggled to overcome his problem and our hearts were crushed when we saw him gain a step then take two back. We all stood beside him and made every attempt to save him from himself. Our lives are forever changed As a family we will find a new 'normal' to live our lives everyday Patrick will always be with us. In my minds eye I see him... handsome, young, and with a life unlived.  Patrick had a drug problem he had been ordering drugs off the internet from foriegn countries xanax to be exact (he also had an oxy cotin addition but he was on methodone for that )he was taking such large amounts that when he ran out he had a grand mol sesior and never came out of it He was walking around talking happy starting to eat dinner when he sat down he had the sesior and never woke up agian he was on life support for four days till there was no brain activity left  he was an organ donor so there are people living today that would not be living if not for him I hope to meet them one day I am not afraid to die now because I know my Patrick will be waiting there for me.

[laurenE]

It makes me mad  how easy it is to    obtain powerfully addictive medications over the internet.   I hope someday  someone will take this seriously and severely punish those  places.   

Send a balloon up from me as well.   Yes, he made bad choices,  but it should have never been that easy to obtain. 

((Patricks mom))

[Karen Paul]

Nancy - I'm so sorry to hear about your son Patrick... what a tragedy, I have heard similar stories from other parents on here - you may want to continue posting on the child loss board -

Your loss is so so new and raw.. my heart goes out to you... I did not find these boards until almost a year after my nephew had passed.. some days just breathing is all we can do, especially in the beginning..

Your son is so handsome - and I love your description of him, he just sounds like someone I would really have loved to know...

I lost my nephew Christopher to a hit and run driver in 2003. Chris is my brother's only child, my parents' only grandchild.. in an instant all of our lives were changed forever... we miss him beyond words..

I welcome you here - though wish you had no reason to be here - and hope you will share more when you are ready..

luv and hugs, Karen
proud aunt of christopher
12.1.86-11.12.03

[Judy-Marc's mum]

Hi Nancy,

Patrick sounds like an amazing young man.

Please join us on the Child Loss board.  I found this site in Oct 2007 about 9 months after Marc had died.  (Marc died almost a year earlier than Patrick.)
Literally it has saved my life.  Being able to talk to others that have been through the same experience is such a help.

Again please join us and let us help in any way that we can.

(((((Patrick & Marc)))))

[Brenda(Jessica's Mom)]

(((Nancy))) I am so sorry for your loss of your dear son Patrick. I had heard you could buy perscriptions over the internet but I had no idea you could obtain dangerous ones as well.
I lost my daughter to a MVA june 22 2004. She was a 1987 baby as well. Please join us over at the child loss board, where we all know your pain and lean on eachother for support. You are most welcome there. I look forward to getting to know you and Patrick more. Brenda