Thank You

[bean]

Hi,
Thank you for everyone's kind words..
all these years, almost 6 for me and I have felt so alone-
Its not often in my little world that I run into anyone
who has lost their only sibling  -never- it seems all I ever hear
about from people is all the things they do, all the places they
go with their sibling and naturally its hard to hear about.
This is the first time that
I have been in touch with anyone else who has lost a sibling
and i'm comforted by everyone's kind words.
I don't know why it took me so long?
Please know you are all in my thoughts in prayers
thanks, bean

[jazzgirl]

It is nice to have a comfort zone to let out our feelings. It's not the same when you speak to someone who has all of their siblings still. I tend to get upset when I see families that still have their siblings and never make time to visit them often. I just want to shake them and say "SPEND MORE TIME WITH THEM! YOU NEVER KNOW WHEN IT WILL END!"
Jazzgirl

[bean]

You are so right Jazzgirl- most people just don't get it- How lucky they are- what it feels like to lose soemone so close to you.   I often get soooo mad when people do not think of my feelings as well.  I have a friend who is always calling me complaining about her sister and I think to myself- honey, I can't even talk to you right now--- sometimes I hang up the phone and pretend we got disconnected- immature i know but sometiems I just can't take listening to it... 

[jazzgirl]

I know what you mean.  I guess I was like them too though before my brother died.  I guess you don't know what you've got till it's gone.  I wish I would have appreciated those phone calls from him more even if they were about nothing.  I still complain about my sister irritating me, but I always talk to her even if she does call 15 times a day.  I do look at things differently though. Before, I use to ignore her calls when I didn't want to talk to her. Now when she calls, I always answer it whether I want to talk or not because my mind says, "How would you feel if she died tomorrow?"